Nine months of pregnancy is hard on almost all women. The 4o weeks I was pregnant was incredibly difficult not only because I was sick the ENTIRE time but also because we were unsure of the health of our little guy growing inside.
When Robby and I went in to have the ultrasound done at 20 weeks everything seemed perfectly fine. At least it did to us. A few days later I received a phone call from my Midwife saying that the radiologist found a few things that were concerning. She explained that our baby could potentially have either Down Syndrome or
Trisomy 18, to be sure we needed to go to Seattle and have more testing done. This was devastating news for both Robby and I. The next few days before our appointment in Seattle were the hardest days of my life.
When we arrived at the prenatal high risk unit of the hospital I was given another ultrasound that only confirmed what the first ultrasound had. The only way to tell for sure what was going on with the baby was to have an amniocentesis done. This is a test where they insert a large needle and draw out some amniotic fluid. I was given two choices. 1. To have the test done which would possibly result in a miscarriage or 2. To not have the test done and spend the rest of my pregnancy unsure of the future of our baby boy. Well, we left the hospital that day not knowing anything more about our little Kai than when we entered.
The next 20 weeks of my life were extremely long. At almost every single prenatal appointment there was always something wrong with the babies heart. This of course only added to my worry. I spent more time praying than ever before. It's very possible that our little Kai has had more prayers offered for him than any other baby.
One day near the end of my pregnancy Robby and I took a trip to the Temple. As we sat in the Chapel, I began thinking about Kai and his health and my mind and heart began to race. There was no fighting back the tears at that point. Robby put his arm around me to try and bring me some comfort. I grabbed for the scriptures, opened them up and read this...
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, if you desire a further witness, cast your mind upon the night that you cried unto me in your heart, that you might know concerning the truth of these things.
Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?"
Heavenly Father was speaking to me personally. I felt an inner peace sweep through my body and was again reassured that everything would be fine. There is nothing greater than having an experience where you feel very close to your Heavenly Father.
Well, prayers are indeed answered!!! I gave birth to a beautiful strong healthy boy. I am grateful that this trial is FINALLY over. I am also grateful for the things that I have learned along the way and am especially grateful for a kind, loving and patient Father in Heaven.
Today we celebrate 6 years of marriage!!
